St. Helena Vineyard Series: Love Me Tender, Love You Hard (Kindle Worlds Novella) (Cookin' With SEALs Book 1) by Sharon Hamilton

Author:Sharon Hamilton [Hamilton, Sharon]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Kindle Worlds
Published: 2016-10-02T18:30:00+00:00

CHAPTER 5

SONOFABITCH! He hadn’t wanted to touch her, reach out to her, show her he still had feelings for her. His plan was to show her he was put back together. That he didn’t need her or anybody. That it didn’t matter he was no longer a SEAL. His identity wasn’t all wrapped up in being a professional Boy Scout. His mission was to show her he wasn’t affected by the cards he’d been dealt.

Maybe she’d actually done the right thing by leaving. He barely remembered talking to her those ninety days when he came back from deployment and tried to put his life back together. At first there was the concern he’d lose his leg. Then it was that he wouldn’t be able to walk. Then run. One by one, he’d blown up every obstacle with sheer grit and determination, summoning up all the steel he had. He was obsessed with getting back onto the Teams. He didn’t want to be one of the ones who couldn’t make it back.

The physical therapy was painful, and they warned him against working too hard, trying too hard, forcing himself into a state of mind that was coiled up like a big snake ready to strike. He knew he’d become a nasty son of a gun, but he had only one path ahead of him, and that was to make a full recovery, no matter the pain, and no matter how he had to keep crashing through it.

But when he hit that plateau and felt himself falter, begin to fall back, it scared him. The pain pills began not to work more than about thirty-five percent of the time, so he increased the dosage more than was recommended. He told himself he was special, he could handle it because of his training.

Then he had trouble sleeping. He knew the lack of sleep was making him paranoid. And who could blame Remy for spending time with her girlfriends toward the end? Just because he was in pain and miserable, didn’t mean she had to go through it.

So she’d gotten out before she grew to hate him any more. That’s what scared her. Of course she didn’t want to go back and revisit that.

Derek watched her tackle the stairway at the side of the commercial shop. He waited to see if she’d sneak a peek out that tiny window upstairs, but it never came. She was a smart girl. A good girl. And it was time to move on. She was way too good for him.

He wondered what would have happened if he’d gotten the letter from Remy that she couldn’t bring herself to send. He didn’t even ask her what she was going to say, as if hearing it would cement the finality that they would no longer be a couple going forward. She’d made that very clear. His heart was just fine with it, the more he thought about it.

Getting back in his Hummer, he glanced over at the application to the Culinary school lying in a light cream yellow folder with burgundy printing.

Download

Copyright Disclaimer:
This site does not store any files on its server. We only index and link to content provided by other sites. Please contact the content providers to delete copyright contents if any and email us, we'll remove relevant links or contents immediately.